來生

那男生问我。。

2009-10-18T15:31:00.001+08:00

那男生问我。。
你听到了吗？海哭的声音。。。
我笑着对他说。。
对啊。。那也是我们的。。。。

声音。。。。

男生

2009-10-17T03:34:00.002+08:00

男生
永远都不会明白。
鸟儿飞的多自由。
之到他放开了手。
才看見了。
海闊天空。

正羽。

life~~~

2009-09-30T23:05:00.001+08:00

Many things to read and test on this coming month...
Am i up to it?
I think and hope so...
It has been a long time seen I last had a test or an exam...
But I will do my best!
my Ippt still the same...
SBJ is the killer...
The rest just need to push abit more to get better marks
running is bad~~~
Haven't been running for like 3 to 4 weeks~~~
hope that I still can run~~~
Will start running soon~~~
maybe tml~~~
lol...
ok back to study~~~

life

2009-09-13T12:48:00.002+08:00

It has been ages seen I last blogged...
But it can't be help...
Cause I am in NS now (for whose who still don't know)
Anyway many things happened this few months...
Ups and Downs....
Life is not like what it used to be...
But is ok..
I met new friends in camp..
They are great...
Just won't talk about the sucky ones..lol
Anyway just POP after 3months of BMT..
Won't forget about my life in BMTC...
Now waiting for unit...
Hopefully is the one I want...
Or something better.. lol..
Ok that about my life as a solider...
Now now..
Anyone want to go shopping...
I need to shop...
Or K-box...
Whatsoever...
Just date me OUT seen I am free now...
When I go in unit...
I will be busy again..
Oh... by the way..
About my love life...
Nothing much have change...
Still single..
And I am lovin it!!! lol...
Ok that's about it for today...
Anything you want to know GO to my FB..
If you have it that is..

long time

2009-05-30T01:39:00.002+08:00

Wow....
Hello I am back...
It has been a long time seen i last up date...
Sorry guys...
I am fine if you all wan to know...
Going to NS soon.. if you wan to know...
15 Jun 2009..
Many things had happened...
Just Graduated from Tp..
Working at KK hospital...lol..
Got my PSP using my first pay...lol...
anyway...
life is still good to me...
Hopefully when I am in NS..
I can get a better body... wahahahaha...
Most of all come out alive~~~
lol

Confessions Of A Shopaholic

2009-04-14T01:39:00.001+08:00

A must watch movie!!!

Confessions Of A Shopaholic

Went with Ky & the rest to TM for movie after our NDP meeting...

A damn funny show...

Watch it and you will love...

And also go Tam one...

The new mall...

Some nice shop over there...

But still new...

Waiting for more mall to open..

BIG ONES!!

I NEED TO SHOP!!!

AND I WANT TO EAT CAKE!!!

swimming

2009-04-13T22:30:00.001+08:00

Went swimming today "with" Novem...
But only after we change and I was buying something...
Then we saw each other...
And the thing is...
We came around the same time...
Swim in the same pool...
And get up about the same time too...
We still did not see each other..
Is that funny...
lol..
Something must have cover my eyes..
Erm... like the Chinese say.. ghost covers eyes...
lol..
Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.....
Touch woods...
lol

(Live as if you were to die tomorrow...)

我到現在還是一個人...
努力要自己避開
和你曾走過的地帶..

MASK!

2009-04-11T23:07:00.005+08:00

Went out with my Sis today to buy my diving things...
So many things I wanted to buy..
But I only can buy one...
Cause my sis is paying.. lol...
End a whole day walk...
I bought a DIVING MASK!!!
I LOVE THIS MASK!!!
heeeheee....
Anyway...
I am going diving in May...
Hopefully I enjoy my dive...
Hope to see more things in the sea.....

My COOL mask..

Chalet

2009-04-08T23:51:00.001+08:00

HOW I MISS CHALET!!!
We had so much FUN in the Chalet...
Telling ghost story...
Play games..
Swimming...
Drinking..
Talking...
Slping..
Hopefully we will have one again soon...
I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!

Playing game!!

Happy Birthday!!!

CUT the cake!!!
Wait for Yl la.. Von...

feeling Irritated

2009-04-04T02:30:00.002+08:00

I am feeling FU**ing irritated..
Dont ask me why!
I am Just irritated!!!
Whatever to everything!!!!
I think i need to cool down...
lalalalala...
1...2....3....4...
AHHHHHH~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
haiz...
That feel better..
And i bought a book today...
Scarpetta by Patricia Cornwell
Hope is good...
Buying things make you feel better...
wahahahha....

feeling

2009-03-31T01:32:00.004+08:00

Feeling weird nowadays....
Don't know why....
Something is inside me I cant explain....
Why is it there....
It feel like...................................................

想得起那時　
那天和你傻笑著認識
是最幸福的事.........

Opening!!!

2009-03-27T01:41:00.004+08:00

This morning went to church...
Catch up with my Pastor...
After that I went for the swim again...
And got myself burn again...
Now I am in pain!!!
Ok...

Today is my Dip Show Opening night...
Had a geat time over there again...
Went to eat with friends after that...
And I got most of the ring light...
White, Green, Blue..
Now what is leave is the Red one...
Haiz...
can someone pass me the Red one PLZ!!!
lol..

The three lights...

When they are lighted up....

Alumni night

2009-03-26T01:18:00.003+08:00

Went swimming in the noon...
Seen I have nothing to do...
Got myself burn...
heehee....
Shall swim more seen I got time...
Need to train before going to NS...

Today is Alumni night...

It was a fun night...
Hanging around friends...
Eating.... lol
Taking photos...
Watching the top 10 Video/Animation...
Exchanging Name cards...
Etc...
Overall is a fun night...

Me and Novem

new look

2009-03-24T23:15:00.003+08:00

Me with new Hair cut....

Me with new Glasses...

My new things that I needs for the next few years....

And They cost me a bomb...

SHOPPING

2009-03-22T00:35:00.004+08:00

Went Shopping today with qiqi....
Bought some things...
So now I am poor again...
Haiz..
Waiting for next week so I have work again...
This week they mixed my timing so.... no work for me... sad~~~
Spent a lot this weeks...
Cause of my name card and glasses cost me $110...
There goes my 2 days pay....
$30 went on food
$30 went on bus
$10 went on hair cut
$30 to menswear...
Total $200 gone in like 4 days time...
Omg...
I sure know how to spend my money...
I need to save up...
Nvm.. I still got pay coming in...
heehee..
This time round need to save...
lol...
anyway look at the way I am spending...
I think is still ok...
Like the glasses buy 1 time at last for 2 to 3 years...
So... Hopefully got work next week...
And stop coming out!!!
But I can't ...
lol..
Cause I LOVE SHOPPING!!!

working working working

2009-03-16T01:32:00.006+08:00

Working working working....
4 days of works...
Makes me soooo lazy to update my blog...
Tml and Tues still need to work too.... haiz....
The only thing good about working is the money!!!
I NEED MORE MONEY!!
What have I been doing in work this week...
Mostly is drawing...
That is wat wacom is for...
Designing, drawing etc...
One sad thing is there is no photoshop in the com... so I can't draw using photostop...
One good thing is there Coral painter... New thing to learn...lol
This is wat I did in Coral painter...
Ugly??
Yes.....
I know......T-T

Sorry... the hair is not done....

我爱你！像原来一样的爱你！你还爱我吗?....

first day of work

2009-03-12T23:42:00.003+08:00

Today is the start of IT show...
And is my First day of WORK!!!
I am selling wacom...
Anyone want to buy?
Buy it from me... lol...
Today was kind of relax...
But I don't think so for tml...
Cause is a friday..omg
lucky I don't need to work on sat & sun...
Stay at home and relax~~~ lol...
So lazy to write anymore...
So I will stop here...
bye~~~

要遇上一个人只要用一分钟的时间...
要喜欢上一个人只要用一句话的时间...
要爱上一个人只要用一天的时间...
但要忘记一个人却要用一生的时间!

crycrycry

2009-03-11T02:15:00.002+08:00

I am done with my 1min showreel...
Went to the library to watch movie after lunch...
The movie stopped at the most interesting part because the library was closing...
Hopefully can watch it again tml...
Came back home after that...
Read the ending of the Chinese novel...
Nearly cried...
But after play one sad song...
I cried...
But I am fine now..
Many ideas for the novel I am going to write...
But I think I know how my story to be like... lol...
Hopefully I can start tml...
But I don't think so cause I need to go school tml for meeting....
I will try to write something...
Ok... Night...

天使的缺点是太善良
魔鬼的缺点是太邪恶
我的缺点是太懦弱...

today

2009-03-10T01:57:00.003+08:00

Went to school today....
For a meeting...
After the lurch...
I went back school to do my 1min showreel...
At around 7pm went to Mac for dinner...
And on the way back I got my title for my novel...
"不只是朋友"
Heehee.... Same name as 1 of my fav song...
Haven't start writing cause brain not working...
Hopefully can come out with a good one...
ok...
Night everyone...

天使有翅膀, 我没有, 所以我不是天使.
魔鬼有魔力, 我没有, 所以我不是魔鬼.
我有的, 是无奈, 绝望和孤独的自由.

what waits a head

2009-03-09T02:42:00.003+08:00

I can't believe it I am blogging today... ha...
Did nothing much today...
Read online Chinese Novel the whole day...
As the story goes on ... My mood went down with it...
No worries... I am still ok... lol...
Planning to start writing my own Chinese novel...
Hopefully I can write something as good as what I am reading now....
But again my Chinese is not that good...
So I will try my best to use good Chinese lol...
What story I am going to write... No idea...
I should wait for idea to come in first lol...
ok... that's all for today...
Hopefully I got more things to said tml...
And maybe some picture.. which I don't think I will have.. lol....

靠在你的怀里,就像是一条小船找到了一处可以停泊的岸 ......
讓我....放下武裝... 像個孩子一樣.... 單純的把愛情放在你心上...

After

2009-03-08T02:21:00.004+08:00

It has been a long time seen I blogged...
Sorry guys,
I was busy with my FYP
That I didn't do well...
Not looking forward to result...
But what to do... this is life...
Anyway...
If you ask me what have I been up to...
I will tell that I am Busy with.....
Applying for NTU...(Done)
Finding Job....
1min showreel....
Going out with Friends....
Waiting for NS....
Sleep and Eat...
Reading Chinese Novel...
Etc....
If you ask me how I feel now...
All I can say is...
LOST~~~
Doesn't know what will happen next.... I try my best to stay happy...
But knowing I am not going to do well in FYP...
Makes me feel lost again~~~
Anyway...
Nothing has change seen last post too...
The only thing is I am out of TP...
What next?...
NS..?
Yes... lol...
After 2 years what will happen to me?...
I will never know...
But hopefully everything will be fine...
Anyway...
Just to tell Everyone that is reading my blog...
I AM NOW FREE!!!
DATE ME OUT!!
lol...
That all for today...
Hopefully I will blog one tml...
heehee...
Night~~~

我不是你想像那麼勇敢...

busy but lazy

2008-11-10T11:09:00.002+08:00

So busy and lazy to update nowadays...
More and more things to do...
Getting restless nowadays...
Don't feel like moving...
FYP~~~~~ Suck~~~~~
Don't have the mood to think about it..
But have do...
Why so fast FYP~~~~
Haiz...
Whatever....
AHHHHHH~~~~
Bernard is dead~~~~~~
Can someone give him life~~~

long time ago

2008-10-28T03:03:00.002+08:00

It has been a long long time..
And I am back to BLOG!!
Many thing has happened this one month...
Came back from Ireland
It was great!!!
Editing in school nor stop!!
Got sick but still need to go to school to edit..
SAD & NO LIFE!
Alt design & FYP this block...
So many thing to to do...
But so little time...
Sad...
Anyway...
But I think I learn alot this one month..
LOT!!
But whatever.. lol...
Anyway.. I think i will be updating here and there from now...
Anot my blog will die again..
lol...
Bye~~

weeks

2008-09-10T00:41:00.001+08:00

Haven't been blogging for a long time...
Cause Wed I send my lappy to service....
Then lazy to update with my Decktop at home... lol...
But ya here I am now... UPDATING!!
Let start my life from Last Wed...

Last Wed

Met Vem,Hz > Service lappy > Army market > Chinatown > Met Qi, Esther, MeiTing > Sing Song > Home

Thur

School Gourp Training with Jec

Fri

School watch Film > Home > Met Von, Meilin, Emily, Kong and Yl

Sat

Cityhall > Buy Things for Ireland

Sun

Church > Dance with Marilyn > Home

Monday

School me Julian > Hub > library > Subway!!!!

Tues

School Training with Jec 2 > home > Kailing Birthday party

Wed

Work > ECP > Home

What a busy life right.. haiz...
There are more to come...
4 more days to Ireland...
Soooo fast!!!

Dark Movie

2008-08-26T02:49:00.009+08:00

Like Dark Movie??...

Then Dont Miss This Movie....

Hansel and Gretel......

Synopsis:

Eun-su was on his way to meet his mother but got into an accident and fainted. In the deep of the night, he opens his eyes to find himself in the forest and there stood a girl. She took him with her and Eun-su follows her to the "Delighted Children's Home" where three children live. This house is full of cookies, a children's heaven, but there's no way of communicating with the outside world, and no way to the forest exit. There are also many strange things that are happening in the house, including the caretaker's behavior.

Overall...

I LOVE THE FEELING OF THIS MOVIE!!!!

The Lighting, Colour, Setting...

Is all so me~~~

Wahahahaha.....

Watch it and you will know what I mean~~

Hermit

2008-08-17T15:20:00.005+08:00

HERE IS MY NEW PETs..

小白和小黑...

Eng: Angel and Devil

Their New home!

小黑, Devil

小白, Angel

hollandV

2008-08-15T15:14:00.000+08:00

Went HollandV today with vem...
lol...
It feel like we are in some other country....
walked around the place...
Everything is so Ex...
Lucky got Subway!
Is a good place to eat n hang out...
Will go there again when I am richer..
Maybe after the Ireland trip...
Anyone want to join?

back to wrok in....

2008-08-10T00:29:00.000+08:00

Went back urban inline today to help out....
Work was not that bad like last time..
As in we don't need to air the skate...
Which I hated the most...
So it turn out better then I thought it will be...
But there are still many many many many problem with the ppl there...
I just can't take myself to like them that much...
Now I think chis company is better... lol..
As in the ppl la...
Anyway so tired after work~~~
Carl's Jr is the best!

outing!

2008-08-07T01:15:00.001+08:00

Went out with Novem, Hui zhen and Kym...
Is a OUTING DAY!

These are the few places we went!

First stop: Harpawvilla

(No picture! Cause never take any.. lol!!)

Second stop: Queen's Way (Disney)

Mickey Com!

The menu

Mickey Pizza!! (nice!)

Third Stop: (Hoswee)

Where have all the ppl go~~~

A long way in~~

A green room

Someone is calling me~~

Should I go in~~

The opening to the roof

silent hill effect.

looking down!

All the way down

I am going to jump~~

3 emo kid

Forth stop: Chinatown

(No pic too)

Last stop: Kallang

Overall I have fun!! lol..

Will have my next outing together again ok!!

Ireland meet 3

2008-08-05T01:08:00.003+08:00

Work today is not bad..
Still the same..
Did alot of planning only...
lol...
Wed is the hard one...
But who care about wed...
TML IS IRELAND MEETING 3!!
I love it when we meet up to talk about Ireland...
Must save up!!!!

first day of work

2008-08-01T00:20:00.002+08:00

Today is my first day of admin work...
Not bad la...

Help the company to pack their things...

Tiring but ok...

Only something really piss me off is the..

CAB UNCLE!!!

F him la...

If he don't know the way that say don't know..

I think he have some thinking problem for something...

It was so near but it got us 6.90 to reach there..

I was like omg la...

But nvm la..

CUT!

2008-07-30T23:29:00.004+08:00

Spot the Diff!!

Me on the 25th July

Me on the 30th July

Yes..yes.. yes... I cut my hair...

SHORT!

I think I look better when my hair is longer...

lol.. But who cares...

Anyway..

I met Kai Ling today...

Went out for dinner...

After dinner we saw JX and RL.. lol...

Continue sitting there and chat...

lol...

So ya.. that is my day..

OST

2008-07-29T00:09:00.002+08:00

Went to National Lib today for OST meeting...

Met Vem first at Kovan...

Then went down to Bugis together...

Meeting place for at Mac...

Got there early...

So I ate before handing to NLib... Cause nv eat before I go.. lol...

Went to the NLib after food...

Borrow many many Dublin book...

And saw some great books...

lol...

Love this Pic

This one too!!

Not bad right!

Nice!

Then We went to TCC to discuss...
Discussion went well...
After discussion..
We went shopping!!!
Saw a berms and tried it on is so nice!!!!
But is $69 after discount is $58
Should I buy?
Can't make up mt mind yet..
lol...
OST IRELAND ROCK!!!!

Deadline again

2008-07-28T00:04:00.000+08:00

Screen writing Deadline today...
I am a free man again...
Went to school for nothing today...
Just to help Daniel Lam to hand in thing...
Daniel you own me one..
Called up sme of my friend to date them out...
So dont wan to go home...
But in the end no one free...
lol...
Nvm...
Slpy...
Need to slp~~~
TML GOT OST MEETING!!!

Sunday work

2008-07-27T23:57:00.000+08:00

Got up at 4am...
Went to Xinmin opp bus stop to wait for the person to pick me up to work...
Working for event today again... lol...
At Fortcanning..
Busy busy busy...
Came home at 2pm...
Eat, watch TV, slp at 4pm
Wanted to get up by 4.30 or 5pm
In the end 7pm..lol
Can't do screen....
Need to go eat dinner with family...
Started work at 11pm...
Ahhhh!!!!
Still got so much die!!!
Now is 3am...
Still got character profile, treatment to do..
Ahhh!!
Tml then do la...
Need to slp...
Gd night!!!

working

2008-07-25T23:22:00.005+08:00

Went to school for apel...
Haiz...
Went home slp for an hour before going to work...
Work is relaxing...
LOVE THE JOB...
EASY MONEY..
lol..
But because of the event screw up abit...
I only got off work at 1 near 2 like that...
But shot some nice pic when I am at SNM reporting...

Nice Right!!

After the event...
I went to MOI chalet..
Reach there about 3am...lol..
But is ok most of them are still playing...
Really enjoy myself!!!

2008-07-19T23:48:00.004+08:00

Wow!!

Guess what I did!!!

We went to a fish farm...

To spa fish!!!

Is cool!!!

Fishes attacking our feet as we places them in the water!!

lol!!

After that, we went around the fish farm..

SPA FISHING!!!

FISH ATTACKING MY LEGs!!

OMG!!! IT ALIVE!!!

Is a brokeback dragon fish

It got a name too

lol

prefume!!!

2008-07-14T23:10:00.000+08:00

Perfume, the story of a murderer
Is F-ing GOOD!!!!
Great Story, great acting, great everything!!!
Love the story alots!!!
I was going to buy the US uncut DVD
But who ill give me the money!!!
Still got Ireland to save!!!
money money money!!!!
lol...
I NEED A JOB!!!!

lazy week

2008-07-12T00:10:00.004+08:00

Having a lazy week this week...
Although I have work to do...
I am still lazy... lol...
Anyway... This few days of school..
Most of the day we watch films..
Like " The Birdcage", " Silence if the Lambs"and etc.
Love those films...
Although I am lazy...
I learn alot this few days...
Looking forward to go back to sch on Monday...

_

Now.. now...
About worries...
Should I or shouldn't I...
Ireland or Singapore...
Haiz...
Is all about money again...
F**K...
What should I do...
So lost now...
T-T

sun

2008-06-30T01:48:00.000+08:00

WTH!!!
I overslept!!!
Wx and Vem came to my house and call me up...
They called me 14 times...
And guess what!
It's all because of my fucking Phone!
It lost it's sound yesterday till like 1am then I find out about it...
WTF la!!
But it was ok...
We wasn't too late for work...
Work was fun and tiring...
But ya...
Fun job good pay...
lol...
But I hit my head... T-T
And it bleed...
BLOOD WAS COMING OUT I TELL U!!!
lol... is a small cut don't worry...
Tml still got class...
Night for now!

wow!

2008-06-29T00:37:00.003+08:00

WoW!!!!!
When was the late time I blog about something...
A month ago?...
Nvm...
I am back!!!
This block was stress for me...
There were many things that needed to be done in this block...
But is over for me...
Coming up next is screenwriting and acting...
Cool right..
hopefully can enjoy...
lol...
Haiz...
Really need money nowadays...
Anyone got easy job easy money???
MUST INTRO ME!!! lol

Oh ya!
For the one that fought with me over the phone...
Plz note or think...
Who is right and wrong...
If you think that I am wrong...
Go ahead...
Cause believe me...
I don't really care... ha!

lazy

2008-05-04T01:02:00.000+08:00

Hahaha....
So lazy to blog nowadays....
maybe because I never blogged for a long time that is why i now so lazy to blog...
lol...
Anyway...
I think that I kind of brainless...
lol... if you know what happened again...
I lost something again...
Nvm... dont feel like talking about it... heehee..
It's over anyway...
It so hot nowadays ans it killing me...
AND MY AIRCON IS NOT COLD!!!
lol...
I am trying to update my blog everyday..
But I think I can't...
Maybe every 2 days ones..

long time

2008-04-25T23:23:00.003+08:00

Hi everyone...
It has been a long time seen I blog..
Has been busy with Defa and work this whole holidays...
And after school started... my time of blogging went down again...lol...
But since now I have the time to blog I will blog about my life...
My life now is ok...
Been eating alot this few weeks...
Love life still 0... lol
But I had learn to live with it.. heehee....
After letting it go... I felt better...
Although the 1st week suck big time..
But now really it feel much much better...
Although sometime when the person appear in front of me...
I will still feel abit weird to talk or what... but I still can live with it.. lol..
Opp!... talking too much about that person... heehee...
Anyway.. kind of like my GPA point but it could be better if there wasn't two C..
But is ok... I still got 2 sem to play with... lol...
Omg!!.. This sem maybe can't score well... but I will try my best...
Ok... I will stop here or today...
Bye bye..

最后一封信

2008-03-27T22:52:00.004+08:00

结束了。。。
结束了。。。
这回真的结束了。。。
谢谢你。。这几个月来的存在。。
对你的暗恋在这里结束了。。。
谢谢你。。
在你的身上我学会了不少。。
也了解了自己。。能这样的爱着某个人。。
知道不该爱你。。。却又爱的冲动。。。
能为一个人付出这么多。。。哈。。。
但我没后悔爱过你。。因为能爱上你，是我人生中最幸福的事了。。。
虽然你不知道我对你的爱。。。但也可能已经知道了。。。
哈。。我也不管了。。
知道也好，不知道也好。。。
不重要了。。
重要的事是。。。。。
现在。。
不是吗？。。。
但是能让我在看着你吗？。。只是看着你就好了。。
可以吗？。。。
我很傻对吗。。。哈。。
但这就是我。。我能怎样。。。哈。。
但放心。。我只想做朋友。。你的好朋友。。。
这是我写给你的最后一封信。。

我的陌生人。

won't be

2008-03-20T18:11:00.002+08:00

Won't be in Singapore this few days...
Thurday to Sunday night...
So if wan to find me plz sms me...
Don't call...
I may or may not reply you...
But once I am back I will...
Ya that about it...
Anyway have a great weekend everyone....

stress and fuck

2008-03-20T11:00:00.003+08:00

I am....
Stress,Stressing and Stressed.....
In other word to use on me is...
Fuck, fucking and fucked up....
lol...
Does it make sense?
Nevermind I don't care....
Need to relax a little bit...
So I am glad that I am going diving again... Ya!!!
Need to take myself off of production for sometime...
Getting sick and tired of it...
But I think I will be fine...
I guess...
lol...
Anyway thank Vem for being with me yesterday...
We had a great time chatting seen a long time...
Thank my friend!!!!

给我。。。

2008-03-17T09:53:00.004+08:00

一粒糖，给我几分钟的快乐。。。
一杯vodka，给我几小时的快感。。。
一本书，给我几天的娱乐。。。
一出连续剧，给我个星期的失眠。。。
一段暗恋，给我几个月的痛苦。。。

long time

2008-03-09T00:41:00.002+08:00

It has been a long time seen I blog....
Very busy with P2 now...
No time to blog...
But now I am here again to update you all about my life...
lol...
I am feeling kind of stress because of P2 and etc...
I find out the older you get...
You need to deal with more things...
You just can't run away like that...
Haiz....
How I wish I never grown up...
Anyway...
Although I feel kind of restless now...
I am trying to hold myself together....
So don't worry about me....
I think I can make it...
=)

overstress

2008-02-23T02:29:00.002+08:00

I think I overstress myself...
Hiaz...
From the starting of the day to the end of the day still stressing....
Although everything is over...
I am still very very stress up...
My heart still beating very fast....
OMG!!!!
AHHHHHH!!!!!!
chill~~~ chill~~~~ I must chill~~~~

STOP

2008-02-16T23:49:00.005+08:00

FUCK!!!!
It is happening again!!!!
FUCK my mood!!!!
FUCK everything!!!!
FUCK this life of mine!!!!
Why can't everything just STOP!!!
_
Drank my 2 beer yesterday...
Feeling light...
Ha now then I know why sad people can't drink when they are sad...
Lucky only drink 2 anot I think I will die...
Went to sleep after that...
Ha... And how I wish I....
_

5 no

2008-02-15T02:06:00.005+08:00

我的五大不。。。

不期待。
不等待。
不怀恋。
不提起。
不悲伤。

可是我能办到吗？。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

Fishing

2008-02-09T03:48:00.000+08:00

Went to Changi village with my sis today to fish...
We went down at about 10.20pm...
Reach there at 11pm...
We then walked a very very dark road to the fishing area...
I tried to take some pic...
But it was too dark...
So ya... lol...
It was scary but fun...
We leave there about 1+am I think...
We then went to eat before we headed home...

can't remember

2008-02-06T04:21:00.000+08:00

Have you ever remember something that happen but it didn't....
It happened to me...
I remember my protection on my phone fell off in school...
I was like fuck la...
Spend $5 and it fell off...
But today in the morning I found out that the thing is still there...
Is it a dream...
I don't know...

mad

2008-01-30T22:53:00.000+08:00

I think I am mad le...
Acting very crazy nowadays....
Doing crazy things too...
Very.... very... very....
Don't know is good or bad...
Maybe just trying to run away from something...
lol....
But who care right....

__________________________

Fuck U for appearing in my dream...
Fuck U for everything you do in my dream....
Fuck U!!
__________________________

正羽已死

2008-01-27T00:14:00.000+08:00

正羽已死....
Bern is Dead....
What is left is only a body without a soul....
Feel like closing down my blog...
MSN....
Facebook...
Friendster...
etc...
Shut myself down to this world...
Should I???
Can I???

ha

2008-01-26T10:56:00.000+08:00

Went to sch today for nothing...
No apel 2 class...
Reach sch at 8.42...
Leave at 10....
2+ hour of waiting....
But it was ok....
At least I was alone...

.....

2008-01-25T01:34:00.000+08:00

Lost...
..........................................................
..........................................................
..........................................................
..........................................................

empty

2008-01-24T23:17:00.000+08:00

Not being online this few days...
Having time on my own...
Make me feel free again...
But I know that is all a lie...
I am still the same old me...
No.... I have lost myself somewhere...
ha... so funny.. who will lost themselves right....
But I did...
Don't what I doing now...
Don't what I thinking now...
Who I am now...
Feeling empty... very... very... very....

a day

2008-01-23T22:06:00.000+08:00

Today is the last day for LS...
After class went to hereafter alone...
To export the footage out...
My group later met SC...
After the meeting...
Didn't know where to go...
Home?
Don't feel like it...
Went to the bus stop... Sat down...
518 came.... Took the bus...
And went town alone....
From there I started walking..walking...walking...
Heeren.... PS..... Bugis.... Cityhall..... Marina spuare.... Suntec....
I walked from 2.30 to 8....

Found this cafe when I was walking around bugis...
I walked in for a cup of coffee...
Kind of nice...
Cheap too...
Is a nice place to chill...
But it will be nicer if it is bigger...

won't be

2008-01-22T14:56:00.000+08:00

Won't be online for the next few days...
From today to Fri...
Or maybe longer...
Anything important...
Like meeting etc...
Call or sms me...
Anot just leave me alone...

mood

2008-01-21T22:40:00.000+08:00

MY MOOD SUCK TODAY!!!!

movie

2008-01-19T01:22:00.000+08:00

Went to watch Cloverfield today...
Kind of cool...
The whole movie is shoot on handycam...
Nearly puke...
Not my kind of shooting style...
But is kind of nice...
At least something different....
Although the ending is like what the hell...

down

2008-01-18T00:54:00.000+08:00

Don't know what to write today...
Feeling very down...
I think I am breaking down...
Help me...
I can't breathe...

Light

2008-01-14T00:06:00.000+08:00

Off the light....

So I can't see...

Off the light...

So I can't hear...

Off the light...

So I won't think....

Off the light...

So I can be in the darkness...

And leave me alone....

Forget

2008-01-13T23:01:00.000+08:00

What is the fastest way to forget someone....
Can't take it any more...
My heart really hurts....
Feel like crying.....
But my tear are not coming out of my eyes...
I think I am really in love with you...

Openhouse

2008-01-12T01:23:00.000+08:00

Openhouse this few day...
Kind of cool...
There will Ups and Downs...
Today went crazy...
Went around giving out T- shirts...
And talk to strangers... lol...
Was so high when I was with my friend...
But still kind of emo...
Haiz... hopefully it will end soon...
But I guess it won't...
Cause life is not easy for me nowadays...

Too Deep

2008-01-10T01:29:00.000+08:00

I hate myself....
Really hate myself....
Told myself that I need to give up....
But I can't...
I think I went in too deep I think....
Deeper then what I think it is....
Deeper...............................................................................................
But what can I do...
I know......
I must let it go....
Or I won't be the same me anymore....

DISC

2008-01-07T22:55:00.000+08:00

Did my DISC yesterday...
Its a Personality style report...
And guess what I got...
The report said that I am a Advisor...
It is kind of true...
It said that I look at relationships as a important thing in my life...
And I agree with that...
I like to listen to people problem and give them some advise...
But...
Why when it come to me...
I can't do it...
Can't make up my mind...
Keep thinking about silly things...
Why just I can't stop myself from all that....
I know what is good for me...
But I just can't stop myself...

Can I find my way back soon....
Or...
It will go on and on...

I really dont know...

Pool

2008-01-07T00:09:00.000+08:00

Went swimming alone yesterday...
There was many people...
Wanted to go home when I saw the crowd....
But when I jumped into the pool..
I felt better...
It was quiet...
It like the time just stopped....
Everything in my mind just stopped like that when I swim...
But when I get out off the pool...
Things are back to normal...

Didn't want to wake up today...
Trying hard to not open my eye...
But I have too...
When time goes by...
Feeling worst...
Sorry Wx that if I sound kind of piss on msn...
Didn't mean it...
I am Sorry.....
Plz forgive me...
Thank everyone for trying to make me feel better...
Love you guys...

what if

2008-01-06T00:40:00.001+08:00

What if this happen?....

Will I die?

What if I really died?....

Will anyone of you cry for me?

What if....

Did this...

Because I was bored at home...lol...

Something that I will never do in my life.....

But if I really died...

It will be the end of everything for me ...

But for my friend and family it new beginning without me around....

Maybe they will be sad in the beginning...

But after many years... people will still go on with their daily life...

Forgetting who I am...

ha.. But what to do... life is like that ....

I need to thank the people that encourage me...

I am very happy that you care...

Thank!!

Believe me I will be fine...
But it takes time...

Lost

2008-01-05T00:42:00.000+08:00

For those who are reading this plz dont worry about me... I just need time to plan thing out...

I am lost....
Really lost now....
Don't know what to do...
Getting sick and tired of of what am I doing...

Am I meant for what I am doing now...
Looking at the other people's production...
Make me feel that I am not there yet....
Looking at wx and novem passion for video...
I try to burn the passion in me again...
But it don't seem working....
I try to write my own story out....
But it seem like another movie I watch before....
Can't come out with a good story...
I ask myself...
Did I take this course because I have no choose or I like it?...
Can't really see myself working as a production crew...

Can I stop going school?
Go for a holidays or something...
Just get out of Singapore...
Go to find who I really am...
And is video meant for me...
But I can't..

Sometime I will ask myself what is the point of holding on...
Just cut my wrist...
And everything will end there...
But no worries...
I won't do that...

thinking

2008-01-02T00:40:00.000+08:00

It's a new year...
But it's still the same old me...
Still the same old feeling I have in the past few weeks...
Trying to stop emoing....
Put a smile on my face....
Be as high as me can when I am around people....
Act normal....
But ones I am alone...
Things start appearing in my mind...
Things that I don't want to think about...
haiz...
Why can't just everything stop...
Stop school...
Stop time...
Stop everything...
Really.....
Don't feel like doing anything at this time...
But I can't...
Hopefully when the times goes by I can be myself again....
Forget about everything that I am emoing...
Wish me luck....

production

2007-12-27T01:43:00.000+08:00

Today went to carmen place...
Discuss about the shot...
So sleepy la...
Was there in time...
Discussed about the shot although I think I never helped much...
Cause too sleepy to think ma...
lol...
Anyway...
After Discussion...
Vem, Mark and me...
We went to Parkway to eat...
We sat at the foodcount talking after the meal...
Came home..
My sister ask me want to eat pizza for dinner anot...
Ya!!! I ate pizza hut for dinner... =D

_

Bernard's Feeling

10% - Lose
45% - Sad
35% - Happy
10% - Restless/Sick

It has been a week seen I started emoing..
Maybe you can't see it on my face when I am with you...
But I just feel kind of Sad...
But I don't know why...
Maybe I am Lose... May someone find me...
Maybe I am Sad..... May someone makes me happy...
Maybe I am Happy... May someone share the joy with me...
Maybe I am Restless... May someone be there for me...
Maybe...
maybe...
maybe...

blade

2007-12-26T01:35:00.000+08:00

In the morning...
I came down to CP to help Joel with the pack up...
After packing up...
We went to eat...
Then I went to Heartland mall...
Planning to cut my hair...
But to many ppl and it was too late....
So I met Wx..
We went down to eastcoast...
Met up Yvonne...
And we went blading...
lol... Wx can't blade..
And I think I very evil...
I laughed at him when he fall on his ass...
But at the end of the day he got the hand of it..
But make try harder...
Go go wx you can do it...
After blading we went to parkway to eat before we go home...
Enjoyed myself today....

MERRY CHRISTMAS

2007-12-25T23:21:00.000+08:00

_
Went to church today at 10am...
Today I don't need to dance!!!
lol..
Was laughing like mad when I saw the dance...
The Dance was nice anyway..
Omg!! I can't do the lift anymore!!!
1 year never dance lei...
Should start soon...
Anyway went to town after church...
Enjoyed myself there...
Thank guys for the gift!!!
Love IT!!!!!!
Kisses for all of you....
_

christman eve

2007-12-24T23:06:00.000+08:00

Last day of work today...lol...
Came down to PS with esther to meet qiqi and friend...
After Dinner we walked to Suntec...
Went to mac for a drink...
Then went esplanade count down...
Didn't really count down anyway...
Not very happening...
But it was good...
Enjoyed....
Went home about 1.30am...
Because took us walked the long way to cityhall mrt...
lol...
Merry Christmas & Happy New Year!!!!

haiz

2007-12-22T00:37:00.000+08:00

Got up in the morning...
Didn't feel any better...
Went to work...
Don't want to think much today....
Meiting today also working at the same place as me..
We dont talk much when we are working...
Cause cause she was at the other side with Esther n Lina....
But we went to eat together...
After we ate...
She went back to work as she only got 45min to eat...
I was planning to go get some feash air before going back to work...
But on the way I saw Esther...
Went to KFC with her...
She and Meiting asked me the same question...
Why I so emo today..
I really don't know why I so emo...
Just feeling sad...
haiz...
hopfully I will feel better tml...

feeling kind of

2007-12-21T00:12:00.000+08:00

Got up at 7.30 in the morning..
My dad sent me to school today....
Was in my dad car listening to song before I started becoming emo...
Went to school to export the video out...
After that when to work...
Reach CP about 11.30...
Hang around the mall before I start working...
Didn't want to talk to anyone...
But I need to..
Trying very hard to smile, talk etc...
Went to eat alone at mac today..
Feeling worst...
Went out the mall to get some feash air...
Called up Meiting to talk to...
Didn't really help much...
After work...
I went home feeling worst...
Listen to When you are gone by Avril Lavigne...
Make me worst...
Just want to sleep...
Don't want to think too much...

filming

2007-12-20T23:48:00.000+08:00

Met Wx n Vem at my bus stop today...
Shooting at East coast today...
And it started to rain when we reach Parkway...
But it didn't stop us...
We shot everything under the rain...
After shooting about 2 to 3pm like that..
Kk n Yvonne came to meet us...
We boys cycle....
And girls blade...
After that we went Parkway for dinner...
Then we went to eat ice-cream...
I enjoyed myself today...
Haiz...
Tml must work....

working

2007-12-19T22:53:00.000+08:00

FUCK!!!!
Fucking boring job!!!
Fucking rules!!!!
Fucking KIDS!!!!
Fucking 4 long days of work left...
FUCK!!!!

first shoot

2007-12-18T23:01:00.000+08:00

Yo!
Today is the first day of Vem's production...
Looking forward to it...
But I need to go to CP to meet ket first for my work...
She is replacing me for today...
Thank ket!!
Went to take up ML n MT at amk mrt at 11.45...
we started shooting to about 2+
Before we went to amk mac to eat...
Wx, Vem n me sat down there to about 5pm..
And went to amk hub to had a walk cause still have time ma...
Reach my house about 6+..
Watch Tv and wait for MT to come back...
Shot the night shot..
And it was a wrap!!!
For today... lol

Defa shooting 2

2007-12-16T22:45:00.000+08:00

Today was busy day...
Met Novem in the morning...
And went to the place where we shoot....
9am to 11pm...
Tried....
Need to sleep....
NOW!!!

sick day suck!

2007-12-12T01:51:00.000+08:00

38.5c today when I got up...
Nothing much to do...
Sick...
Can't go swimming today...
T-T
I hate it when I am sick...
Emoing.....
emoing....
emoing...
emoing..
emoing.

movie

2007-12-11T01:27:00.000+08:00

Went to school today to meet the rest for movie...
Feeling kind of restless...
But ya...
We went watch the golden compass
The movie was not bad...
I can't said good because there are some mistakes...
After the movie we went to eat...
Talking about the movie...
Saw this fat guy sitting and showing off half of his ass...lol...
We walked around before we headed home...
When I & Wx is walking home we saw.... lol..
Nevermind...
Anyway I walked home alone...
And when I got home...
I felt kind of sick and my mom said I am having a fever...
And yes... 38c...lol...
Lucky today no school...
Can rest...

feeling

2007-12-10T01:40:00.000+08:00

Feeling restless...
Feel like smoking suddenly...
Someone stop me!!!
I think I getting sick.....

discussion

2007-12-08T01:53:00.000+08:00

Met PS today to meet Vem...
For some script discussion....
Our meeting was at 3...
But we both came at 2.30...
How coincidence right....
Anyway we went up to yamaha to help Wx to check for keyboard..
But they never sell the one he wanted to buy...
Then we went to Oldschool to get Vem stuff...
146 steps up the hill...
146 steps down the hill...
PS is flooded with people today..
No place for us to sit...
Then we walked to the new cathey starbucks...
Wx met us after that...
Went up to yamaha again to look at the keyboard...
Then we walk to town...
Ate Pasta mania for dinner...
We walk around before we headed home..

new job!!!

2007-12-07T01:42:00.000+08:00

I FOUND A NEW JOB!!!!
Cool can work for my psp!!!
lol..
Anyway went to sch today...
Met SC...
Haiz... Need to change script again....
After the meeting..
I went to met my family for dinner...
Ya.. my birthday dinner...
lol...

nearly die

2007-12-06T01:37:00.000+08:00

Went to school today for meeting...
After discussion I & Vem went to eat..
Met Wx after that...
And we went swimming...
6 laps!!!
We swam 6 laps!!!
I nearly die in the pool la....
After that we went to heartland mall for dinner...
And I took the wrong bus home.... =(
End up need to walk home...=(

for what?...

2007-12-05T01:29:00.000+08:00

Went to school today....
Wanted to go for the Workshop...
But end up nv...
Spend my time with Wx the rest...
At first me and wx want to go swimming..
But the rain never stop...
So we went to TM for dinner...
There was me , wx, yvonne and wei ling....
We ate MOS...
Then we went to yamaha...
Saw this 270 keyboard...
And everyone want to buy it...
But no MONEY!!!!
lol...

monday blue

2007-12-03T19:40:00.000+08:00

Nothing much to do everyday...
So haiz...
But luck today...
Went swimming with WX today...
Went to eat...
Then it was a boring day again...

Birthday Day

2007-12-01T03:01:00.000+08:00

My cake!!!

Cake and Gifts!!!!

Thank guys for all the things you all bought for me...

Love them!!!

Really enjoyed myself with you guys today...

Went town today with Qilin and Mei Ting...

On the MRT I saw eye candy...lol...

We walked around town area... before heading for dinner...

After Dinner Esther came...

Then was Mei Ting's bf...

We then went to Mac cafe to eat my cake...

Sat there to 10.30...

Talking and playing Mei ting's PSP...

lol...

reformat

2007-11-30T00:53:00.000+08:00

Went to qilin house today.
Reformat laptop....
I went there about 11am...
And leave his house about 4.40pm...
lol...
Anyway then we went to expo to take a look at the IT fair...
Everything is so ex la...
And I saw kong and nic....
They will working... you dont want to know how much they earn per hour... lol...
After expo we went to bugis to eat...
lol... 2 guys that have anything to do on a friday...
Anyway is getting late...
need to sleep...
Night....

long time

2007-11-29T03:45:00.000+08:00

It has been a long time seen I last update....
Sorry guys...
Was kind of busy with life...
Many things happened this whole month...
But don't feel like talking about it... lol...
Anyway I will try to update more...
Free like going swimming anyone want to com along?...
ENJOY MY HOLIDAYS!!!!
And my last few days of my teens... lol...

i am a pig

2007-11-04T02:02:00.001+08:00

I am so pig today...
I slept at 5am yesterday...
Got up at 2.30pm today...
Went to eat...
About 4.30pm went back to sleep again....
Got up at 6.30pm...
Eat at around 9pm....
Went online....
Got bored...
Sleep again at about 11pm...
Got up at 1am...
And here am I now feeling sleepy now....
lol...

defa

2007-11-02T01:27:00.000+08:00

Defa training is fun....
Learning new things everyday...
But is kind of tiring...
Today I is my dad's birthday..
Went dinner with him...
We went to Jerry's BBQ and Grill...
It is a club street...
I find that Club street is a good place to take photo...
The food there was great...
If I have the money I will go there to eat again...
lol...

a new block

2007-10-31T01:24:00.000+08:00

A new block!!!!
A busy block....
2 subject in one block...
But videdit only start only thur...
Defa will only start also on that day...
So busy!!!
Hahaha....

Today we took back our scriptwriting assignment 2 & 3
Both I got B....
So i think the end result will be a C ba...
At least a C...
Better then a D...
Haiz...
Hopefully is C
Anot I will..................................

Filmla

2007-10-29T01:00:00.000+08:00

WoW!!!!!
Fucking happy now..
For filmla essay I got
50%!!!!!
Over 60%
^o^ Can't believe it!!!!
Total I got 87%
That is an A!!!
An 'A' I tell you!!!
Hopefully it don't change la at the end of the day...

over

2007-10-25T21:00:00.000+08:00

After today scriptwriting is over!!!!
Not over as in over...
What I mean is no more assignments...
lol...
Just need to hand in assignment 3....
Hopefully everything goes well...
But it never...
Things happened...
But never mind it was solve...
2 more days of school till next block start...
Hopefully it will be a fun block ahead....

nv sleep

2007-10-24T21:09:00.000+08:00

Never Sleep today!!!!
So fucking tired...
But what to do must do Filmla...
Didn't know how to write
And what to write...
That's why it took me the whole night to complete it....
Reach school at 9.15am today...
But never went to script class...
Went to the 3D room to do my filmla...
Handed it in at 11+am...
Hopefully I am right...
Met my group for script today...
But again we did nothing much....
Fucking sleepily...
then at 4 we went to the media talk...
But it was boring...
haiz... want to sleep...
But need to check what is needed for script...
night...

WTF!!!!!

2007-10-23T03:28:00.000+08:00

Things are not going well for me this week...
Take cab to school cost me $12....
But still late!!!
Presentation I lost my words...
Think F is coming to me....
Everything seem not right....
Feel like stopping everything...
Stop school
Stop getting mad
Stop thinking
Stop living.....
haiz...
Don't worry for me....
I am just out of my mind....
Will be back to normal soon I hope... =)
I will end here for today.....
With the word
FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!